you taught me not to trust anybody anymore; to hate the place I used to call home.
you gave me sleepless nights and terrible nightmares.
I now have Methyphobia and Aphephobia.
you made me hate everybody.
How can I forgive you if you haven’t even asked in the first place?
For all the lost opportunities,
All the might have been.
I wish to be forgiven.
I love my ambitions in life. It’s what keeps me going when everything seems to fail. I don’t plan to be just someone ordinary.
In a generation where everyone is expected to have a lot of slashes, I am certainly up to this challenge. I can be Blogger/Photographer/Fashion Muse/Radiologic Technologist/Professor/a Friend/a Lover/a Daughter/a Sister/a Partner/a Wife and a lot more.
I have this burning passion to be a person worth remembering after a hundred years from now. I wish to contribute goodness in this chaotic world.
I have the drive to a good life, and I’m planning to keep it that way.
The two things that instantly pops up in my head when I saw the Day One challenge:
Lately, when people calls me names, I get this a lot more than the usual. Yes, I am selfish and I hate it so much that I am. Me. Me. Me. I always want it my way. I never seem to listen to anyone else. The only thing that matters is what I want. Hearing me say these things makes me realize why people leave me for good.
I have them in pinkish color on my legs. I was skinny anorexic my whole life and the sudden weight gain gave me these ugly stretchmarks. I took pride of my legs, always been careful not to get scars. Now, I can’t even wear shorts. I have to conceal it and wear stockings at my own graduation.
I think the next challenge is harder. It’s a bit late and I’m addicted to Michelle Phan’s Short Movie Make-up Tutorials. Good night lovely creatures.
I was busy the last couple of days. Busy crying from a setback (should I say an expected disappointment), and busy trying to recover from the disappointment through my guilty pleasures (which is eating out and buying make-ups). I checked on this site, expecting less activity but I was wrong. Thanks to my new follower, I got into this search and found Kellie Elmore‘s 30 days of Truth Blog Challenge.
An exercise in self exploration and learning to be honest with yourself … and that ultimately leads to happiness.
Day 01: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02: Something you love about yourself.
Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Join me through this journey. Day One is currently under Drafts.